I hear some mothers say that if you’ve never lost your sh*t on your children, you are probably lying. It’s no secret that it’s difficult to remain calm and cool when our children are basically causing all sorts of havoc on our lives. But that doesn’t mean that we hate our children or worse, wish they never existed to begin with. Motherhood is damn hard, but the majority of us can safely say that we still love our kids with entire hearts, no matter how much they turn our houses upside down.
With that being said though, there are a good number of women who have their regrets. That, or they are secretly suffering from postpartum depression and have negative thoughts and feelings that just won’t go away. One mother took to her Reddit account to admit that she not only hates her son, but wishes that he would just die in his sleep, too. Can you believe it? Here’s what she has to say.
Regret
According to the Mirror UK in a now deleted Reddit thread, the mother began, “It all starts with the fact that my daughters were very much planned and wanted pregnancies. My son was not. I didn’t realize I was pregnant until 16 weeks when I first felt the baby move.”
She then admits that she and her husband would have felt relief if the poor boy would have just died in his sleep because that’s how much they didn’t want him anymore.
She continued, “I don’t want to be insensitive to anyone who has suffered a loss in this way, but I have to be honest, my husband and I both had a period where if he had of died in his sleep, we would have felt relief. At one point, I googled if we could still put him in the “baby hatches” our country has. He was too old. But again, how would we explain to everyone, including the girls, why we had a baby and then suddenly didn’t. I sobbed. I wished more than anything I realized I was pregnant earlier and could have had the abortion I wanted.”
No Bond
The mother added, “I feel like my ability to bond with him was shot to hell by the fact he was just such a difficult baby. I honestly hated him for the first 18 months of his life. Now he is three-and-a-half years old and even though he has now outgrown all that, and is pretty chill, I still just don’t like him. I am struggling to bond with him or even like him because I’m having trouble separating him from the memories of my marriage almost falling apart and my career being absolutely destroyed by having him and just the feelings that he was “forced” onto me by a birth control failure”
And to make matters worse, her son never slept through the night. He suffered from reflux and colic, and she said it nearly ruined her marriage.
As you can imagine, her comments have gotten her plenty of criticism online. Many distraught readers have left such comments as, “This woman needs help. She is harming her daughters too. They will all grow up hating their mother if she doesn’t sort it out.”
Another says,” I can’t believe any mother would truly wish their child dead unless there was some serious mental health issue. I really hope this family gets some much needed support before too much damage is done to that poor little boy.”
Depression
Another person wrote, “This is such a sad story, it may have been better for this child if they had put him up for adoption because he mist be able to tell the different between the love he is show and the love his sisters get.”
My heart absolutely goes out to everyone involved. Also, it’s not my place to judge this mother as postpartum depression is real. We all know at least one mother (or even father) who has dealt with it in the past. If you feel like you might be suffering from the post baby blues, talk to your trusted friends and family members. Seek professional help. Know that you are not alone and that there are people out there that can help you get through this challenging time in your life right now.
Depression
Another person wrote, “This is such a sad story, it may have been better for this child if they had put him up for adoption because he mist be able to tell the different between the love he is show and the love his sisters get.”
My heart absolutely goes out to everyone involved. Also, it’s not my place to judge this mother as postpartum depression is real. We all know at least one mother (or even father) who has dealt with it in the past. If you feel like you might be suffering from the post baby blues, talk to your trusted friends and family members. Seek professional help. Know that you are not alone and that there are people out there that can help you get through this challenging time in your life right now.
